Potty Training

I forgot to add in my last post that ADDI IS POTTY TRAINED..... it's been two weeks & she's doing awesome.   She's only had about 4 accidents in the two weeks.  She was starting to hate getting her diaper changed so I kept telling her "if you don't like this then start going on the potty."  Well two weeks ago tomorrow I was changing her diaper in the morning & she was throwing her fit & I reminded her of what I said & next thing I know she took her pants & diaper off & went & sat on the potty & went pee. She has been going ever since.  She even held it on two long road trips.  I'm so proud of her & hoping that her brother will follow in her foot steps, but currently he's just excited about telling everyone how Addi goes on the potty.

Where do I start??!?!?!?!

Well I'm offically a SAHM as of April 13.  I truly love the fact of being the only care giver to my wonderful children, but it is hard.  There are days that I really wish I was going into work, but most days I'm loving it completely. 

Ok, as I said before my husband is currently serving his 20 days in jail which started last Sunday.  This is not easy on me at all.  It is so exhausting & this past week was horrible.  It started with almost two weeks ago my husband had to take Joey to the ER & he ended up with broncitis & then on Sunday (the day my husband had to report) Jake & Addi & I all got sick.  I took them to the doctors on Monday b/c they had horrible coughs & fevers & they told me they just had common colds.  Well come Wednesday Jake (my 7 month old) was having problems breathing & was very congested so my husband found a new peditrician & I took him in & he also has broncitis & a start of an ear infection.  Then on Thursday Addi got a high fever & her cough was bad so I took her into Urgi Care & she ended up having broncitis & a start of an ear infection.  So all three kids have been on antibiotics & Addi was put on a breathing machine.  Also Jake on Thursday was wheezing so bad & I was debating on taking him into the ER that night but I just kept my eye on him & his wheezing got better come Friday.  So it was a really bad week with none of my kids sleeping b/c their coughing was keeping them up.  Anyways they are better this week, but it's still not easy. 

Joey has been horrible (his attitude).  I'm not sure if this is something to do with the Chris being gone or what.  It's seriously to the point that I need a break from him.  He won't listen & is constantly being really bad.  I'm really hoping that this is a stage & this is what they consider the "Terrible Two's", b/c I don't know what to do if this is how he is going to be. 

So anyways besides that nothing really much has changed.  I've lost 20 lbs on W.W. so far so I actually am feeling good about that & right now I get to the gym 3 times a week b/c my mom comes to watch the trio for 2 hours so I can go & then when Chris is done with his jail time I'll be able to start going on Tuesday & Thursday's at night & make it 5 days a week.  I'm currently at 100 lbs need to lose.  UGH, that seems like so much espeically after how hard I worked years ago to lose 70lbs. 

Well it's getting late & I need to go shower since all three are finally sound asleep.  Until next time take care!!!

Really?!?!?!?

It's been a long time since I cried myself to sleep & woke up crying.....  Chris is the biggest asshole I ever met.  I really wish there was someone I could talk to w/o making myself feel like an idiot or looking down on me or him.  Anyway, here is the story...

Last summer while I was pregnant & home w/ our twins he was up at the trailor w/ friends & they were all out on the boat & the Coast Gaurd pulled him over & he got busted for DUI.  Well first off he didn't tell me about this until months later when he had to go to court & told me he was going to do something else & I finally got it out of him.  So first off he's been lying to me & I just brushed it off, which any normal person would have been pissed off.  This was his excuse for not telling me the truth "you were pregnant & I didn't want you to worry."  Nice but full of shit b/c he sure didn't worry any of the other times he upset me.  So anyways, he went to court again yesterday & found out they are making him do 20 days in jail.  20 fricken days, I know I'll survive w/ the trio, but it's not going to be easy.  I'm mad about this, but there is nothing I can do so there is no point to sweat about it.  They are giving him work priveldges.  Who know how much fines & cost he has to pay, he already wasted alot of money on his attorney.  So this little stupid stunt is costing us & our family ALOT. 

So he comes home yesterday around 5:30pm & I'm feeding Jake & the twins are running around waiting for daddy to bring dinner home.  The dogs are locked outside b/c they bother the twins while eating.  So you figure my brillent husband would come in the front door so the dogs don't come in.......but no he comes to the patio door & I get up to let him in & just say (in no angry, nagging tone) why didn't you come to the front door.  He opened the door & threw the bag he had in his hand & started yelling at me... "what the F.... does it matter what door I come in, why are you nagging me?!??! I can't handle this now."  Ok, WTH did I do.  I wasn't the one that was driving the boat drinking, I wasn't the one that sentenced you, then why are you taking this out on me & your kids?!?!??!?!  So basically that made the rest of the night awkard between everyone.  So I continue w/ the night doing everything myself as usual giving the trio a bath & then getting them ready for bed & feeding Jake.  Then after the twins were in bed I left for the gym at 7:30pm & I wasn't even 10 mins into my cardio when I started getting text after text telling me the kids are crying & to come home now & how he feels sick to his stomach & he cannot handle this right now, I need to come home.  I then asked him for at least 20 more mins so I can at least finish my cardio.  He started putting the guilt trip on me & saying come the 'F' home now.  So much for exercise relieving stress.  The only time I can ever get any "ME" time is the hour & a half I'm at the gym.  All I ask is please give me that much.  He is their father he needs to put his needs aside for a second & man up & take care of his kids.  Again it's not my fault he's stressed out about jail time so PLEASE stop putting this on me!!!  I felt like total shit.  So I finished my workout & came home & stopped to get him something to eat.  I didn't even want to come home that's how uncomfortable he's made it.  I'm sick of the kids & I having to walk on glass around him not knowing what he's going to blow up at this time.  So I get home & we don't say anything much to each other (another awkard moment).  He goes to bed w/o saying anything to me & I continue to clean up the kids toys (yeah, he didn't bother to do a thing while I was gone, but I'm getting use to it) & get all the kids stuff ready for my mom & dad's house tomorrow before I can lay down.  So I get upstairs & go to bed & we again don't say a thing to each other (again, this whole thing is NOT my fault quit acting like it is).  So I finally doze off & wake up to him putting the AC until in the window & turning it on.  REALLY?!??!?!?! WTF AC it's only March 14 & this is Ohio we can & probably will still get snow before Spring.  Plus it was only 69 outside, so we go off about that, b/c it's all about him (always).  So finally he says "will you just let me get some sleep" I said "sleep!?!?!? that's all you do is sleep".  So he gets mad & says "I'm leaving, I can't do this, I'm done" he kept repeating how he's done & he's leaving he's had enough (again, not my fault you're going to jail, quit taking it out on me).  I wanted to tell him to just leave already.  He then said "I'm going to quit & do nothing & make you worry about making the house payment"... You know what DO IT!!!!  This will show everyone what a man you truly are & giving up on your family b/c YOU fucked up, we did nothing.  He acts like I don't worry about money & paying the bills.. Hello idiot everyone shows stress a different way & b/c I don't take it out on my family doesn't mean I'm not worried.  Now he's got me all guilty & feeling like crap b/c I'm quiting my job come April 13 to stay home w/ the kids b/c day care is too expensive. 

So to say the least I cried & cried hard last night & didn't get to sleep till after midnight knowing I will be up at 5am to again get the kids dressed & out the door all by myself, while he sleeps.  Again, who needs sleep?!?!??!?!?!  I guess I don't.  I cried my whole way to work, I cannot handle this anymore... I'm trying to be the strong person my parents raised me to be, but it's getting hard.  I probably will not speak to chris at all today b/c he just doesn't care anymore.  I wish he'd just get over himself & stop thinking everything is about him.  He's got three precious beautiful children that are suppose to come first before anything.  I let him do so much on his own as I stay home & take care of our children & he's out playing/having fun (i really don't have a choice, someone has to be the responsible one). 

I don't know what's going to happen w/ us, I don't know what to do...I'm scared, but staying strong for my babies.  I really wish someone/thing will wake Chris up to reality!  How much more can I really take?  When am I going to break.  I really need to talk to someone, wish I can talk to someone b/c I need to get this out, it's killing me inside.

Another Week!!!

Well I've been doing good w/ my diet & exercising.  I am down another pound (286) making a total of 11 lbs.  I already feel 85% better w/ just that small drop in weight. 

Anyways, I have exactly a month left (April 13th) until my last day of work & I get to become a SAHM to my three little ones.  In a way I'm excited but I'm also scared.  Scared that we are making the right decision and that money wise everything works out the way it should.  I would really like to find a way to bring cash into the household, but I've been searching for weeks & have found nothing.  I don't understand the people that have those ideal work from home jobs & how they found/got them.  I so wish I was alot more creative and could make stuff to sell. 

The twins are doing great & getting smarter by the weeks.  If you hold up the letters of the alphabit Joey can name them.  My mom has been working with them since she started watching them back in November & they are thriving so much lately.  Joey is going thru a stage were he doesn't want to go to bed & wants to sleep in "Mom & Dad's" bed.  Chris let him cry the whole hour & a half that I was at the gym last night (I feel horrible about it now, but I have to have alittle bit of me time to).  So however he fell asleep finally in his own bed only to wake up around midnight & come into our room.  I carried him back into his room around 3am right before the big thunder storm hit.  I prayed that it wouldn't wake up the trio & thankfully it didn't. 

Addi, is starting to talk alot more & yell at her twin brother more & also tell on him.  She is so very helpful with her baby brother & they both watch over him very closely & hug & kiss him. 

Well actually gotta run, but until next time have a great day!!!!  I cannot wait to get home to my babies...

A little update :-)

Well we did our weekend get away 2 weekends ago & it was going decent until the twins arrived & they went with no naps.  It was still a good day even w/o naps until it became bed time.  My sister was going up early b/c her back was hurting really bad, so I took the oppurtunity to take the twins up to the room & put them to bed too & it didn't go as well as I planned it to.  Joey fought & screamed his little head off for about 2 hours.  He finally fell asleep on my bed while screaming.  I felt soooo horrible.  Besides that it was a good weekend. 

As for weightloss.....

I started going to the gym last Monday (2/27) & I went 5 days last week.  It resulted in a 5lbs weightloss.  Making that a total of 10lbs so far.  Doesn't seem like much but I forgot what it felt like to feel so good from working out & I can tell on how my clothes are fitting that Weight Watchers & the gym are working.  So this past Monday (3/5) I was down to 287 so I still have 90lbs to go.  I will be the happiest person if I can just get myself under 200.  I have NEVER in my life weighed this much & I don't like one bit of it.  I feel so disgusted & don't wanna do anything or go places b/c I don't like the way I look.  In just the last week I've been feeling 75% better about myself.  It also helps when people tell you that you're looking good.  Last Friday I wore jeans to work & one of my co-workers said "Damn girl, those jeans are looking good on you."  My confindence level shot up after that. 

On another note I will end my full-time employment and become a SAHM on 4/13/12.  In a way I'm excited to get to watch my babies grow up but I'm also scared.  I'm scared about money & I really, really hope we are doing the right thing.  I hope that maybe I can find a better paying job that's flexable w/ hours or work from home to bring more cash into the house.  I just really hope it all works out in the end.

So we are attempting a weekend get-a-way this weekend at a hotel w/ a water park.   Chris & I wanted to get down there Friday & spend that night by ourselves & then everyone will join us on Saturday.  I got my sister to babysit on Friday but I feel bad leaving her w/ the trio so we're going to take Jake w/ us on Friday & she'll watch the twins.  It won't be that bad since Jake is only 4.5 months he cannot do much & I don't have to chase after him so we'll be able to enjoy ourselves Friday night.  Then my sister is bring the twins & her son (Nate 7 yrs old) on Saturday & we'll have a day of fun & spend the night & go home Sunday.  I hope it doesn't turn into a crazy mad house which it seems all of our trips lately w/ the trio have been like. 

So basically the trio are at my parents house today so I have to pick them up from there after work today & we usually eat dinner there & then head home.  I have so much to get done for the weekend tonight.  I was originally planning on going to Gaint Eagle at lunch today & do some shopping for stuff we need, but then I got called downtown to finish out my work day (there is no shopping when you work here b/c of parking).  So now I have to put together another plan.  I have to pack up all the kids stuff & have it in the van & ready to go for my sister.  There is a pot luck on Saturday night so we're going to bring our "award winning" chili so I have to make that.  Plus make sure the van is filled w/ gas for my sister.  Then there is plenty of other stuff to do. 

I seriously have not sat back & realized how busy my life has become w/ 3 under 2.  Jake has started rolling onto his tummy & he also sat up by himself.  He wants to just get up & play w/ his brother & sister & He watches them w/ so much interest & just laughs away at them.  He also much love when they get in trouble b/c he laughs whenever we have to yell at them.  I'm glad he thinks it's funny b/c I hate having to yell.  But that seems to be the only thing you do when you have two in the terrible two's that only listen when they want & beat the living crap out of each other.  I do have to admitt they've gotten better with that & I catch them playing/dancing/ rolling around on the floor w/ each other.  No matter what I do love them endlessly.....

Well until next time....................ENJOY!!
Jennie

25 weeks 4 days pregnant!

Well I went this morning & did my 1 hour glucose testing & praying that everything comes back good so I don't have to go back for the 3 hour test.  The doctor I've been going to for my ultrasounds thinks that I might have gestational diabetes b/c the baby seems to be bigger then average. 

Here is what is going on so far:

I went in for a follow up anatomy scan on Thursday 6/23 (24 weeks 6 days) & the baby is healthy & doing great.  I got a really good 3D picture of him that you can see very clearly.  He's still measuring about alittle over 5 days ahead of schedule & weighing in at a whopping 1lb 15oz. So the Dr came in to do his final assesment & said "I'm guessing you've probably put on about 15lbs so far this pregnancy?" Me "no I've actually lost 10lbs according to my last appointment."  He said well go get the glucose testing done & we'll see you back in 9 weeks to check the weight of the baby then.  Then he continued to remind me that I need to not eat fast foods, fruits w/ high natural sugars, PB&J & lots of carbs.  Told me to stick to fresh veggies & fresh meat (seeing how I don't eat much meat I guess tons of chicken).  He kinda got me worried that the baby is going to be HUGE if I go full term & I'm scared.  Now I know I started this pregnancy over weight & really don't need to gain anymore weight, but I'm trying to eat very healthy so this baby will be healthy.  He said I'm probably feeding the baby the wrong stuff.  Kinda makes you feel like a bad mom.  Well I go for my monthly appointment w/ my regular OB next Tuesday 7/5 so we'll see if I've gained any (b/c I feel like I have) & we'll see what he has to say b/c I'm going to mention what the other doctor said to him. 

Other then that I've been feeling pretty good so far this pregnancy.  I am starting to get really tired faster especially chasing the twins around. 

Well this is the holiday weekend coming up & we have tons of stuff planned along w/ alot of driving.  Friday after work we're going to go up to the trailor so we'll be heading West w/ a little over an hour drive & staying the night & coming one later Saturday night.  Then Sunday we'll be heading South about 2-2.5 hours to my family picnic, which I cannot wait to go b/c it's been awhile since I've seen my family (aunts, uncles, cousins that is).  Then come Monday I think it's going to be a relaxing day before heading back to work for a 1/2 day & then go to the doctors in the afternoon.