So it's Thursday & DH is suppose to go put the boat in the water tomorrow & then stay at the camper till Sunday. I'm just not ready for all the stress of being at home alone taking care of two dogs & twins by myself. I really don't need this w/ being pregnant, but I don't think DH gets that I'm pregnant & need help w/ things right now. Anyways he calls me today & wants to go down there tonight. WTH?!?!!?!? To me it feels that he doesn't wanna be w/ or around the twins & I or something. Whatever. I know I have gained lots & lots of weight & I'm very, very, very unattractive right now. After this pregnancy I am going to TRY really hard after this pregnancy to loose at least 75lbs by next summer 2012 to start w/. I just need support. Yes, I'm very uncomfortable w/ myself right now & that's the reason why I didn't want to go anywhere since the twins were born b/c I'm uncomfortable w/ myself & being in public.
Anyways, I'm trying really hard not to stress over this & to just make do w/ the twins this weekend & have fun w/ them. I just hate it so much, but then when he's home it is not any different b/c he's either going out w/ friend & then to hung over the next day or sleep all day. We don't do much fun & my house is the nastiest mess I've seen it in a long time. I need help cleaning but he wont help. I do so much by myself.
Ok, i'm feeling bad for going on & on but I had to get that off of my chest. Since I'm too embarrassed to say anything to anyone else.
Anywho, I'm going to take my dad & the twins to dinner tomorrow night so I'm excited. Then I just have to figure out what to do Saturday & Sunday so we don't have to sit around the house all day.
Dec 2011 - Addisyn, Jake & Joseph
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Trip to the Zoo
Here is a new picture of the twins... I absolutely love this picture it's my favorite. On Sunday DH & I took them to the Zoo for the first time & it totally exhausted them out. They fell asleep & look at how I found them holding hands.
14 1/2 weeks
So sorry I haven't updated in a while, but life is a bit kaotic right now. The twins are walking so I'm staying very busy & especially w/ nice weather coming up.
Anyways, I'm 14.5 weeks now & I got to see the little peanut a few weeks ago & it was of course amazing. I went in for the integrated screening (http://www.questdiagnostics.com/hcp/intguide/jsp/showintguidepage.jsp?fn=Genetics/Prenatal/TS_Integrated_Screen.htm) and everything so far came back normal. I go again for the anatomy scan (2nd part of test) on May 12th at 9am, so we'll offically find out what we are having then unless I get an ultrasound thru my OB before then. I'm so excited. I have a feeling it's a boy & I keep refering to the peanut as a boy. Anyway so far everything looks good, I got to hear the HB last week & It was music to my ears. I go for my next appt May 5th. So far this pregnancy I've lost 1 lb. I'm not trying to loose weight (even though I can afford it) but I don't need to gain to much since I'm already a lard butt.
It still doesn't feel like I'm pregnant for real yet, but I am getting scared on how hard it's going to be with 3 under 2. I do look at it as a complete & total blessing & a reason behind it after all the fertility struggles that DH & I went thru to get to the position we're at today it just amazing. I feel truly blessed for this little surprise.
The twins are doing amazing & are truly amazing me every day. With their walking, trying to talk & just it's something new every day & that's the best. I am so totally in love w/ them.
Well that's it for now. I hope I can remember to update this more especially since I want to keep a blog of this pregnancy since I missed the twins pregnancy.
Anyways, I'm 14.5 weeks now & I got to see the little peanut a few weeks ago & it was of course amazing. I went in for the integrated screening (http://www.questdiagnostics.com/hcp/intguide/jsp/showintguidepage.jsp?fn=Genetics/Prenatal/TS_Integrated_Screen.htm) and everything so far came back normal. I go again for the anatomy scan (2nd part of test) on May 12th at 9am, so we'll offically find out what we are having then unless I get an ultrasound thru my OB before then. I'm so excited. I have a feeling it's a boy & I keep refering to the peanut as a boy. Anyway so far everything looks good, I got to hear the HB last week & It was music to my ears. I go for my next appt May 5th. So far this pregnancy I've lost 1 lb. I'm not trying to loose weight (even though I can afford it) but I don't need to gain to much since I'm already a lard butt.
It still doesn't feel like I'm pregnant for real yet, but I am getting scared on how hard it's going to be with 3 under 2. I do look at it as a complete & total blessing & a reason behind it after all the fertility struggles that DH & I went thru to get to the position we're at today it just amazing. I feel truly blessed for this little surprise.
The twins are doing amazing & are truly amazing me every day. With their walking, trying to talk & just it's something new every day & that's the best. I am so totally in love w/ them.
Well that's it for now. I hope I can remember to update this more especially since I want to keep a blog of this pregnancy since I missed the twins pregnancy.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Update
Wow, I haven't written in here in a while. I just barely have time. Well I went to my 1st doctor appt on Tuesday 3/8 & I was alittle upset that since I was 9.5 weeks I thought forsure he would listen for a heartbeat. All he did was just a normal first exam & then went over stuff. So we still don't know if there is more then one in there, even though my gut tells me just one. Well my next appt is Tuesday 4/5. I normally wouldn't be getting an ultrasound until 18weeks, but DH & I decided to get the Integrated Screen done which you have to get an indebt ultrasound & blood work in the 1st trimester so I go on 3/25 for the u/s. Then blood work in the 2nd trimester. They are screening for Down's, Tris 18 & NTD.
As for me & how I've been feeling it's up in the air. I'm not eating much b/c I don't have an appitite, but I know that will change & alot of stuff still makes me nauesous. I think I hurt my back b/c it's been hurting so bad the past several weeks & only getting worse. Since I've had to prior back injuries & two surgeries I know when my back just isn't at the point of "oh it'll heal w/ time". I've noticed my left hip sticks out more & my right leg feels like it's shorter then my left. So I think I'm out of alignment. Anyways I called a back doctor & I go see him on 3/24.
As for the twins they are getting bigger & faster everyday. Joey just got over Roseloa which Addi had about a month ago. Addi has had Diarrhea for a week now & I took her in to the doctor yesterday & they think it's a virus causing the diarrhea which is giving her a nasty diaper rash that was blistering & bleeding. They also said she is just getting over a double ear infection b/c both of her ears of fluid in them, they didn't give anything for that b/c it was at the ending stage. They will just check her ears again at their 15 month well check up. They took her off of milk & 100% juice (I don't give them juice anyways they get water & milk) until the diarrhea goes away & when I introduce the milk back in I'll see if the diarrhea comes back & then we'll know it was that.
Well I better get to work.
As for me & how I've been feeling it's up in the air. I'm not eating much b/c I don't have an appitite, but I know that will change & alot of stuff still makes me nauesous. I think I hurt my back b/c it's been hurting so bad the past several weeks & only getting worse. Since I've had to prior back injuries & two surgeries I know when my back just isn't at the point of "oh it'll heal w/ time". I've noticed my left hip sticks out more & my right leg feels like it's shorter then my left. So I think I'm out of alignment. Anyways I called a back doctor & I go see him on 3/24.
As for the twins they are getting bigger & faster everyday. Joey just got over Roseloa which Addi had about a month ago. Addi has had Diarrhea for a week now & I took her in to the doctor yesterday & they think it's a virus causing the diarrhea which is giving her a nasty diaper rash that was blistering & bleeding. They also said she is just getting over a double ear infection b/c both of her ears of fluid in them, they didn't give anything for that b/c it was at the ending stage. They will just check her ears again at their 15 month well check up. They took her off of milk & 100% juice (I don't give them juice anyways they get water & milk) until the diarrhea goes away & when I introduce the milk back in I'll see if the diarrhea comes back & then we'll know it was that.
Well I better get to work.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Co-Irkers
Sometimes my one coworker really makes me want to throw up. There is this lady that I swear to you either bi-polar or parinoid schizophrenic & forget to take her meds everyday or needs to be put on meds. I have never worked w/ anyone that has lived a very parinoid life. Everything that anyone does is always out to get her some way or another. You don't even have to be talking to her or about her & then all of sudden she'll start going crazy b/c everyone is out to get her. UGH, she makes coming to work HELL everyday. To add to it she doesn't have any work to do so she gets one my nerves even more & it gives her more time to sit & get more parinoid over things.
Anywho.... I need to stop stressing. I need this pregnancy to be stress free not like my last. She had me so pissed that I started getting cramps & we don't want problems because of a crazy bitch.
So I turned 6 weeks last Friday 2/11 (whoo Hoo) coming along week by week very slowly but making progress. Yesterday & today I've been feeling very nauseous to the point that I wanna throw up. My lower back has been killing me but I've been taking tylenol for that (which personally I do not like doing). So other then that, thats been about it.
As for the twins Addie has started walking more but it's still not a constant thing, but she's making progess & she just laughs like crazy when she does walk. It's too cute. Joey has become an expert walker now. Saturday we took them for blood work & that has to be the worst thing to do to a child. I took Addie back for hers and she cried & screamed & just the look in her eyes was so heart breaking. She kept trying to grab me w/ her other hand & I felt so helpless. I made DH take Joey in to get his & I heard him crying & screaming from the waiting room which make me want to cry. But we all made it thru it & no one to their 1 year appointment this Thursday 2/17, which will be more crying w/ the shots they'll be getting. But the shots aren't so bad b/c it's one stick & their done but w/ the blood drawls the lady had to move the needle around in their arms to find that vein & I know how that sometimes hurts me & I'm not even phased by needles.
Oh........ HAPPY VALENTINES DAY......
Anywho.... I need to stop stressing. I need this pregnancy to be stress free not like my last. She had me so pissed that I started getting cramps & we don't want problems because of a crazy bitch.
So I turned 6 weeks last Friday 2/11 (whoo Hoo) coming along week by week very slowly but making progress. Yesterday & today I've been feeling very nauseous to the point that I wanna throw up. My lower back has been killing me but I've been taking tylenol for that (which personally I do not like doing). So other then that, thats been about it.
As for the twins Addie has started walking more but it's still not a constant thing, but she's making progess & she just laughs like crazy when she does walk. It's too cute. Joey has become an expert walker now. Saturday we took them for blood work & that has to be the worst thing to do to a child. I took Addie back for hers and she cried & screamed & just the look in her eyes was so heart breaking. She kept trying to grab me w/ her other hand & I felt so helpless. I made DH take Joey in to get his & I heard him crying & screaming from the waiting room which make me want to cry. But we all made it thru it & no one to their 1 year appointment this Thursday 2/17, which will be more crying w/ the shots they'll be getting. But the shots aren't so bad b/c it's one stick & their done but w/ the blood drawls the lady had to move the needle around in their arms to find that vein & I know how that sometimes hurts me & I'm not even phased by needles.
Oh........ HAPPY VALENTINES DAY......
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Offically 1 years old!!! :-(
Well it's offical the twins are one!!! It's so sad, but exciting. The birthday party was a hit & they did great. It was a very exhausting day for them & also for momma! More & more they are growing up every day. I cannnot get enough of just sitting there watching them & watching them mature.
So here are a couple pictures from the birthday party.
So here are a couple pictures from the birthday party.
Friday, February 4, 2011
5w today ~a bit anxious
I know I'm only 5w exactly & I'm still nervious as hell that something isn't going to go right. I constantly am runing to the bathroom & not just to pee but to check to see if I'm bleeding. I'm so scared of losing this pregnancy b/c it's still odd that I got pregnant w/o the doctor's help, it just doesn't seem real.
So far today the things I've been feeling different are sore boobs but mostly only when I touch them & adversion to food, I really haven't been eating like I probably should be. I have lost interest in my morning coffee's. By the end of the day I feel so bloated & like I want to explode & I cannot get a solid night of sleep & it's not b/c I'm up going to the bathroom all night b/c I haven't experienced that yet, but I'll wake up every hour on the hour & sometimes I'll fall right back to sleep but others I'll just lay there & cannot sleep. Last night was alittle better I didn't get up every hour. I also noticed I've already started snoring & so loud that I to wake myself up & my throat is sore. A weird symptom I'm surprise I'm already experiencing is my legs/claves/thighs/butt/hips/love handles all feel like they have bruises really bad. They are sore when I touch them almost like my boobs are. I have been having major mood swings & I totally feel back for the twins & DH.
Ugh this wait till 3/8 is going to be a long one that is my first appointment.
So I have lots to do this weekend as of 5pm tonight I'm going to be running around like crazy getting things ready for the twins B-day party tomorrow & then Super Bowl on Sunday.
So far today the things I've been feeling different are sore boobs but mostly only when I touch them & adversion to food, I really haven't been eating like I probably should be. I have lost interest in my morning coffee's. By the end of the day I feel so bloated & like I want to explode & I cannot get a solid night of sleep & it's not b/c I'm up going to the bathroom all night b/c I haven't experienced that yet, but I'll wake up every hour on the hour & sometimes I'll fall right back to sleep but others I'll just lay there & cannot sleep. Last night was alittle better I didn't get up every hour. I also noticed I've already started snoring & so loud that I to wake myself up & my throat is sore. A weird symptom I'm surprise I'm already experiencing is my legs/claves/thighs/butt/hips/love handles all feel like they have bruises really bad. They are sore when I touch them almost like my boobs are. I have been having major mood swings & I totally feel back for the twins & DH.
Ugh this wait till 3/8 is going to be a long one that is my first appointment.
So I have lots to do this weekend as of 5pm tonight I'm going to be running around like crazy getting things ready for the twins B-day party tomorrow & then Super Bowl on Sunday.
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