5w today ~a bit anxious

I know I'm only 5w exactly & I'm still nervious as hell that something isn't going to go right.  I constantly am runing to the bathroom & not just to pee but to check to see if I'm bleeding.  I'm so scared of losing this pregnancy b/c it's still odd that I got pregnant w/o the doctor's help, it just doesn't seem real. 

So far today the things I've been feeling different are sore boobs but mostly only when I touch them & adversion to food, I really haven't been eating like I probably should be.  I have lost interest in my morning coffee's.  By the end of the day I feel so bloated & like I want to explode & I cannot get a solid night of sleep & it's not b/c I'm up going to the bathroom all night b/c I haven't experienced that yet, but I'll wake up every hour on the hour & sometimes I'll fall right back to sleep but others I'll just lay there & cannot sleep.  Last night was alittle better I didn't get up every hour.  I also noticed I've already started snoring & so loud that I to wake myself up & my throat is sore.  A weird symptom I'm surprise I'm already experiencing is my legs/claves/thighs/butt/hips/love handles all feel like they have bruises really bad.  They are sore when I touch them almost like my boobs are.  I have been having major mood swings & I totally feel back for the twins & DH. 

Ugh this wait till 3/8 is going to be a long one that is my first appointment.

So I have lots to do this weekend as of 5pm tonight I'm going to be running around like crazy getting things ready for the twins B-day party tomorrow & then Super Bowl on Sunday. 

Still dumbfounded!!

I still cannot come to terms that we are pregnant again!!! I never thought this would be possible especially with what we had to go thru last time.  I will say we are truly double blessed for a second time.  There must be a reason.  I constantly still am checking to make sure I haven't started my period b/c at some points it feels like I might have, but (thankfully) we're still going strong.  I really hope that this is a healthy pregnancy & nothing goes wrong b/c this IS my last chance.  I will be 5 weeks pregnant tomorrow & though I'm still very, very early I'm praying it holds.  I have accepted that I'm pregnant & we're happy now.  I don't go to see my OB until 3/8, which is going to kill me to wait that long.  It's not like last time when we were on fertility drugs & IUI's so we were being very closely monitored & got lots of U/S.   We are just hoping that it's one very healthy baby in there.

So far I've been nauesous & lost interest in food (haven't been eating much, but I'm trying to eat healthy b/c I don't need to gain any weight, I'm over weight still) my boobs just started getting sore & just yesterday my legs/thighs/hips/butt/back feel like they have bruises all over them when I touch them. 

Tonight we are going to look at two different vehicles the KIA Seronto & GMC Terrain we need something that will fit 3 car seats.  I liked the KIA w/ the 3rd row seat, but there is no room for storage.  I haven't look at the Terrain yet but they don't offer a 3rd row so the seats will have to fit across the back.  We'll see what happens.

So for the twins they are doing great.  Joey's still walking & Addi is not she actually walks on her knees, it's kinda cute.  We are getting ready for the 1st birthday party this weekend, I've got lots to do in the next 3 days.  Then Sunday is Super Bowl & I'm so very excited that my team is in it. 

GOOoooooooooooooooo

It's offical

The doctor called this morning & the blood test came back positive, so we are offically pregnant.  I will post more tomorrow, b/c I gotta run it's time to go home. 

OMG BFP!!!!!

I am shocked, scared, nervous... After 2 years of trying to get pregnant on our own the 1st time & then finally having to go medically get assistance we got pregnant & now this?!?!?! Holy cow.  If this is true & this takes then the EDD will be October 7 which is a day before our anniversary. 

TGIF!!

I am so truly happy it's Friday (finally).  We so far this week this is what happened last weekend poor Addi girl got a fever starting last Friday afternoon & did not let up until Monday afternoon.  Saturday night I was awaken at 2am by Addi & she was burning up I took her temp & It was up to 105.1.  I didn't know what to do for the poor girl.  We called the doc, but they never called back.  I gave her meds & then just held her in my bed & rocked her for a bit & then layed her back in her crib & she went back to sleep, but mommy didn't b/c I couldn't help sitting there thinking I should take her to the ER.  I ended up taking her into the ER on Sunday night b/c her temps were 103 & above.  The ER was ridiculous!!! They took a urine sample & checked her ear & throat & said she was fine (go figure at that time she didn't have a temp b/c I just gave her meds) ok I understand that but the reason I brought her in was b/c she was not drinking & I was terrified of dehydration.  Whatever, took her home & she went to bed.  Monday morning she woke up w/ a fever of 103.6 & I went to work & DH called the doctor & they wanted us to bring her in so I left early & took her in & go figure by that time her fever was gone & when they took it, it was 97.4 (rectal), WTH but I was relieved, but kinda made me feel like I was making it all up.   So we go home & she didn't get another fever since Monday morning.  Tuesday the Nanny calls to tell me she's got a rash all over her, so it confirms what I that it could have been Roseola, as of today her rash is 95% gone now we just pray that Joey doesn't get it or if he's going to please get it before his birthday party next Saturday. 

Well I turned another year older (36) on Tuesday 1/25, happy birthday to me... bah hum bug. LOL.  So I've been doing weight watchers for 2.5 weeks now & when I went to my meeting Tuesday 1/25 I lost 4.4lbs for a total of 5lbs in two weeks.. Yeah me, way to go. 

Well that's about it for the week.  This weekend we have to clean house & I mean clean.  We're having the twins 1st birthday party at our house & it's going to be on their actual birthday 2/5.  My sister has volunteered to watch them at her house tomorrow for a few hours so we can clean.  So other then cleaning this weekend that's my only plans.  Oh & hoping AF shows up here... or we might have 3 under two soon.  My AF is acutally due today I'm at CD29.  I think DH might go nuts.

New Year New Me

Ok, so I've had enough... I went & joined weight watchers on 1/11/11.  I cannot believe how much I weigh.  I am seriously only about less then 10lbs from where I was when I was 9 months pregnant w/ twins.  This is just disgusting.  So anyways I went to my meeting yesterday 1/18 and I only lost .6 lbs, not even a full damn pound.. WTF! Anyways in a way it is my fault b/c I did kinda bad w/  my eating and keeping track of the points b/c I didn't have access to their website or a book of how much the points are worth.  Well I am officially a member & now I have access so I have no excuse to not know the correct pointsplus value of whatever I am eating.  I WILL do better this week & I am going to start going to the gym again, just have to figure out when.  I am thinking Monday morning I'll start fresh.

Anywho on to the twins! I finally got their birthday invites in the mail today, yes today.  I am so horrible.  I have to start thinking about things I want to get for the party.  We decided to have it at our house & invited about 25 people on their actual birthday 2/5.  I just have to figure out what I'm going to do.  I will have to admitt I am so bad when it comes to organizing parties & I feel sorry for my kids b/c of this.  I know they will only be a year & won't remember anything, but I want it to be a fantastic one.  I'm so affraid that noone will show up or I won't have anything done.  I have ALOT to do in the next 17 days.

Ok so on to planning.....

Oh & Joey is offically walking..

Happy New Year 2011

Well it's the start of a new year!!!!  My year has actually been crap so far, but that's another story in itself.  Well the ending to 2010 I was greated w/ oh so great AF on 12/31.  We had alot of fun went to a neighbors house w/ the twins & they enjoyed their first new years eve, but I ended up putting them in the spare bedroom & they fell asleep which I really don't know how they slept w/ all the noise, but they are my little perfect angels.  Anyways I had way to much fun I drank a bottle of wine by myself & did a shot & yeah I ended up paying for it the next day.  I couldn't keep anything down Saturday morning not even water it was coming from both ends (sorry TMI).  I know now why I don't miss hang overs, b/c it's been a long time since I've had one like that & I don't want another one EVER (it's not worth it).  Plus having to take care of the twins by myself that morning wasn't easy.  So w/ that said, I'm done drinking like that....

Well........the twins will be 11 months old tomorrow 1/5/11. OMG, I cannot believe it they will be a year in a month.  Where in the heck did the time go?  I already really, really miss the way they were when they were born.  I really need to decide what were going to do for the birthday, the clock is ticking on this now.  2010 was the best year of my life b/c my little miracles entered my world & changed my whole life around.  I love them more & more every day I see them.