It's offical

The doctor called this morning & the blood test came back positive, so we are offically pregnant.  I will post more tomorrow, b/c I gotta run it's time to go home. 

OMG BFP!!!!!

I am shocked, scared, nervous... After 2 years of trying to get pregnant on our own the 1st time & then finally having to go medically get assistance we got pregnant & now this?!?!?! Holy cow.  If this is true & this takes then the EDD will be October 7 which is a day before our anniversary. 

TGIF!!

I am so truly happy it's Friday (finally).  We so far this week this is what happened last weekend poor Addi girl got a fever starting last Friday afternoon & did not let up until Monday afternoon.  Saturday night I was awaken at 2am by Addi & she was burning up I took her temp & It was up to 105.1.  I didn't know what to do for the poor girl.  We called the doc, but they never called back.  I gave her meds & then just held her in my bed & rocked her for a bit & then layed her back in her crib & she went back to sleep, but mommy didn't b/c I couldn't help sitting there thinking I should take her to the ER.  I ended up taking her into the ER on Sunday night b/c her temps were 103 & above.  The ER was ridiculous!!! They took a urine sample & checked her ear & throat & said she was fine (go figure at that time she didn't have a temp b/c I just gave her meds) ok I understand that but the reason I brought her in was b/c she was not drinking & I was terrified of dehydration.  Whatever, took her home & she went to bed.  Monday morning she woke up w/ a fever of 103.6 & I went to work & DH called the doctor & they wanted us to bring her in so I left early & took her in & go figure by that time her fever was gone & when they took it, it was 97.4 (rectal), WTH but I was relieved, but kinda made me feel like I was making it all up.   So we go home & she didn't get another fever since Monday morning.  Tuesday the Nanny calls to tell me she's got a rash all over her, so it confirms what I that it could have been Roseola, as of today her rash is 95% gone now we just pray that Joey doesn't get it or if he's going to please get it before his birthday party next Saturday. 

Well I turned another year older (36) on Tuesday 1/25, happy birthday to me... bah hum bug. LOL.  So I've been doing weight watchers for 2.5 weeks now & when I went to my meeting Tuesday 1/25 I lost 4.4lbs for a total of 5lbs in two weeks.. Yeah me, way to go. 

Well that's about it for the week.  This weekend we have to clean house & I mean clean.  We're having the twins 1st birthday party at our house & it's going to be on their actual birthday 2/5.  My sister has volunteered to watch them at her house tomorrow for a few hours so we can clean.  So other then cleaning this weekend that's my only plans.  Oh & hoping AF shows up here... or we might have 3 under two soon.  My AF is acutally due today I'm at CD29.  I think DH might go nuts.

New Year New Me

Ok, so I've had enough... I went & joined weight watchers on 1/11/11.  I cannot believe how much I weigh.  I am seriously only about less then 10lbs from where I was when I was 9 months pregnant w/ twins.  This is just disgusting.  So anyways I went to my meeting yesterday 1/18 and I only lost .6 lbs, not even a full damn pound.. WTF! Anyways in a way it is my fault b/c I did kinda bad w/  my eating and keeping track of the points b/c I didn't have access to their website or a book of how much the points are worth.  Well I am officially a member & now I have access so I have no excuse to not know the correct pointsplus value of whatever I am eating.  I WILL do better this week & I am going to start going to the gym again, just have to figure out when.  I am thinking Monday morning I'll start fresh.

Anywho on to the twins! I finally got their birthday invites in the mail today, yes today.  I am so horrible.  I have to start thinking about things I want to get for the party.  We decided to have it at our house & invited about 25 people on their actual birthday 2/5.  I just have to figure out what I'm going to do.  I will have to admitt I am so bad when it comes to organizing parties & I feel sorry for my kids b/c of this.  I know they will only be a year & won't remember anything, but I want it to be a fantastic one.  I'm so affraid that noone will show up or I won't have anything done.  I have ALOT to do in the next 17 days.

Ok so on to planning.....

Oh & Joey is offically walking..

Happy New Year 2011

Well it's the start of a new year!!!!  My year has actually been crap so far, but that's another story in itself.  Well the ending to 2010 I was greated w/ oh so great AF on 12/31.  We had alot of fun went to a neighbors house w/ the twins & they enjoyed their first new years eve, but I ended up putting them in the spare bedroom & they fell asleep which I really don't know how they slept w/ all the noise, but they are my little perfect angels.  Anyways I had way to much fun I drank a bottle of wine by myself & did a shot & yeah I ended up paying for it the next day.  I couldn't keep anything down Saturday morning not even water it was coming from both ends (sorry TMI).  I know now why I don't miss hang overs, b/c it's been a long time since I've had one like that & I don't want another one EVER (it's not worth it).  Plus having to take care of the twins by myself that morning wasn't easy.  So w/ that said, I'm done drinking like that....

Well........the twins will be 11 months old tomorrow 1/5/11. OMG, I cannot believe it they will be a year in a month.  Where in the heck did the time go?  I already really, really miss the way they were when they were born.  I really need to decide what were going to do for the birthday, the clock is ticking on this now.  2010 was the best year of my life b/c my little miracles entered my world & changed my whole life around.  I love them more & more every day I see them. 

OMG it's been awhile...

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!  The twins really enjoyed their first Christmas just to bad they both were sick & mommy was too.  One Friday Christmas Eve we started out at Grandma & Grandpa Ischay's for the first part of the day & then we ended the day at G&G Saggio's & there were lots of people there & they got lots of gifts.  They had a very, very busy but fun day!  Christmas day is when everyone woke up sick & so we just chilled at home & did nothing all day. 

Well everyone is doing better except DH is sick now. 

So I went out & bought the twins their first toothbrush & toothpaste & we started brushing their teeth to get them use to using a it.  I'm also trying to teach them to walk.  Joey has already taken his first steps & Addi has just started letting go of things & standing there w/o holding onto anything so I'm hoping it's only a matter of time.  You can tell that they both want to get up & take off, but they cannot figure out how.  I cannot believe they are going to be a year old in just alittle over a month :-( it makes me very sad, I miss them at tiny babies in some way, but it's awesome to see them grow & mature over the months.  I'll tell you that's been the best experience ever. 

I'm so happy all the holiday's are over, b/c we are offically BROKE :-(.  I looked at our banking accounts just a bit ago & I almost cried b/c we have NO money, our savings it gone.  Oh God please don't make anything go wrong where we need emergency cash until we build it back up.  Go figure my engine light came on this morning!!  WTH.  Tears are forming in my eyes right now b/c I do not like this no money thing I really don't like it at all, I'm scared to death!!!!  Please, please, please don't let anything go wrong & please, please let us rebuild our savings back up quickly.  This is frightening...

Just not feeling it today....

I'm really just feeling overwhelmed, upset, ashamed, guilty today.  My sister Sam came in to visit from Denver & she, my sister & her BF & my nephew, my parents, my cousin Denise all came over for some pizza after work & just so everyone can see each other.  Well first off my DH had a Christmas party for his work & got there alittle after everyone arrived.  So we all ate & DH just did other things, so I ASSUMED he wasn't hungry cuz he would have ate at the party.  Well after everyone left he started playing a damn guilt trip on me like always (b/c he knows I get easly upset/guilty)  I said I cannot believe you didn't leave me any pizza... Ok first off when you saw us all eating why didn't you come over & eat.  Also he said he didn't eat at the party (Ok what did you do then???).  So ok he made me cry.  Then I've got a situation w/ our babysitter all off sudden smoking in the downstairs bathroom.  Our house is smoke free & I have childern in my house & one that's already has congestion when she breathes.. Why would you feel like smoking in the house????  I understand it's cold out, but come on treat it like a job & you cannot smoke on a job you have to go outside to do it.  This is the second time I've noticed my bathroom smelling like smoke.  My husband won't say anything to her b/c he's affraid she'll get mad & quit & I don't have the guts to confront her about it myself.  Also my DH has known her since he was a kid b/c he is BFF's w/ her son.  I do understand its our house & we should tell her to please don't smoke in it, but I don't know how to tell her w/o putting bad vibes between us & creating awkward moments from that point on.  I HATE awkward moments.  I wish my DH would understand that this is about the kids & their health.  I know I hate my house smelling like smoke & I don't want that bathroom to start smelling like it all the time & think about how it'll turn buyers off when we do go to sell it.  I can deal w/ that right now no matter how much it bothers me, but what scares me & bothers me most is the twins health. I don't want them around 2nd hand smoke it's as bad as 1st hand & especially on babies who are still developing.  I just need some idea's on how to tell her w/o hurting her feelings or sounding rude or mean.  UGH, What should I do?????

So I'm just feeling blah cuz I have that on my mind & then the whole stupid pizza thing w/ DH & I'm just feeling so damn bad right now.  I sersiouly have tears in my eyes.  That's just who I am, I'm very emotional.  I also want to have some sexy time w/ DH since we didn't get to last night cuz I was asleep before he came up & when I mentioned it to him today he just kinda said "Blah"... He said where's my pizza.. Whatever, please just drop it.  I just feel like I cannot do it anymore.. I try so hard to provide for my family & be the best wife/mom I can.  I'm running out.  DH has another X-mas party for his ex-employer (which he really doesn't have to go to, just going for free beer/food) it starts at 3pm & his boss is letting him go early, so I kindly asked him if he can be home by the twins bed time so he can help me... (that's 4.5-5 hours of drinking/eating socializing) he said no I don't think I'll be home by then, anyways I know he'll be drunk by then so I don't really know how much help he'll be anyways, we'll probably end up arguing all night & end up w/ me crying.  So anyways the reason I asked him to be home is b/c I offered to watch my BFF daughter who is about a year & a half from like 7pm-11pm.  I'm just worried that it's going to be hard to put the twins to bed w/ her cuz what do I do w/ her then... Stick her in the pac-n-play until I have them in bed so I then now for sure she is safe by herself for a few minutes while I put them to bed??  That is the only thing I'm worried about & what if the twins are having a bad day that day & I need help???  What if I have 3 cranky babies by myself along w/ two annoying dogs to deal w/????? 

Ok, well I'm done venting, but really not feeling better getting that out like I thought I would.  I just cannot wait for the weekend to be over....