Welcome Jake Christopher

This is looooooong over due.  I just barely have time to get on the computer anymore.  I had a scheduled C-section set for Saturday, October 1st and Thursday, September 29 was the start of materinity leave for me.  Well Jake had other plans.  On Monday, September 26th at around 3:30pm my water broke while at work (yeah, my biggest fear) but it wasn't like a gush or anything.  I went to the bathroom & then while I was standing at the sink I felt a little gush & thought I peed myself (thought I didn't empty my bladder completely) so I went back to the toilet.  Even though I was wet I figured I can make it another hour & a half b/c it'll be embarrassing to tell someone I peed myself.  So I went back to my desk & anytime I laughed or moved there was leaking going on down there.  So I began to think my water might have broke so finally around 4:15 I called my doctor & told them that either I have no control over my bladder or my water broke so they told me to go to the hospital & the doctor will check to see what's going on.  I was starting to get these tighting feelings (contractions) in my stomach, but it didn't hurt & I thought I was imagining it.  So I told work I think my water broke & left at 4:30pm.  It was a rainy crappy day out & by this time traffic was horrible.  It would take probably 20-25 minutes w/o rush hour to get to the hospital.  In the mean time I was calling my parents to go relieve the sitter & get the twins.  I told my husband to meet me at the hospital.  Everyone was freaking out b/c I was driving myself.  I figured by the time someone came to pick me up & drive all the way back to the hospital it would be longer then me just taking myself.  So I was having contractions the whole way there & traffic was stopped.  I finally arrived at the hospital alittle after 6pm & was admitted to L&D triage.  My OB was on vacation so I had a fill in & he went to swab me to see if it was my water, but once he looked he said there was definitely no doubt my water broke.  They never checked me for dialation since I had to have a C-section, I wish they would have so I knew where I was at.  Anyways we had to wait for a OR to become available & then at 9:28pm on Monday, September 26, 2011 Jake Christopher entered the world (via c-section) weighing 8lbs 9oz & 20".  I cried.  I did have my tubes tied & so it took longer before I could hold him, but I couldn't wait & to be able to breastfeed him.  Here are some pictures..

Jake Christopher 

My first glance at our "surprise"

 Addi meets her baby brother

 Joe meets his little brother & hugs him

 The twins & their baby brother

 Addi & Jake 1 month old

 Joey & Jake 1 month



It's been awhile...

Wow, I haven't realized that it's been almost a month since I updated.  Nothing new is really going on just taking it day by day & praying that this baby comes soon.  I'm 36 weeks 4 days today & I have a doctor appointment this afternoon.  I'm really getting sick of these appointments, UGH... They are so pointless to find out I'm getting fatter & fatter week by week.  The only thing I really like about these appointments are hearing his heartbeat & knowing that everything is still OK.  Tomorrow I have another ultrasound, because at the last one they found out that I have a One umblical Artery so they want to watch his growth & that.  Other then that he seems to be doing very well.  I am physically/mentally exhausted & my body hurts like it hasn't hurt before.  I have a really bad case of insomnia & it's not that I'm uncomfortable or constantly getting up to use the bathroom I fall asleep pretty easiely & then w/i an hour or so I'm up & I just wake up & lay there & cannot go to sleep.  This is worse then gettting up to feed/diaper a baby. 

So we've recently tried moving Addi into her brothers room & it was a BIG FAT FAIL.  So currently she is back in her room.  Joey is getting use to his new bed, but he's been having issues w/ getting up very, very early & by early I'm talking 4:15am.  We have to try putting Addi & Joey together again b/c I really don't want the baby to share a room w/ one of them & constantly wake them up when he gets up.  I just don't knwo what to do, I'm lost......  Chris wants to put the crib in the hallway but b/c of the dogs/cat & noise I really don't want him in the hall & then there'd be no room to get around.  Then since he'd end up being right in front of the twins doors wouldn't he wake them up when he cries?!?!?!?!!?!  The first month he will be in a bassinet in our room, but after that I don't know what to do.  His clothes are still in a box even though I washed & folded them a week ago.  I don't know where to put them, yet.  UGH, I'm so unorganized & tired. 

Well anyways I'm just done, I'm finished w/ being pregnant I'm finished w/ being so exhausted & sore. I'm very, very close to throwing the towel in.  I don't know what to do anymore.

So overwhelmed...

Ugh, is all that I can say!!  I am so exhausted and I know I have little time left till the baby gets here so I have so much to do & so little time & absolultely no help & add my responsiblities to the twins. I just really wish my husband could help me more instead of just worrying about drinking & sleeping all the time.  I just get so overwhelmed w/ what I've gotta do.  My house is so nasty disgusting & he doesn't help do anything there is so much that I need to do cleaning wise but I don't have the energy to do it nor can I b/c I have to watch the twins.  If only he understood that's why I'm sooo stressed out right now.  I just need more help in getting stuff done.  Our house is falling apart b/c he cannot take the time to fix something when it breaks so it sits & then something else breaks & it's an on going thing & they all pile up & now there is so much that needs to be done & he doesn't want to do it.  I'm going to have to start doing stuff myself.  I grew up in a clean household & I know that he didn't.  I'm pretty sure he didn't even have to clean growing up so he's use to just trashing everything.  This bothers me know just as bad as it did then.    He keeps telling me to relax well it's called help me & then I can.  Start doing alot more then  you do now to help me & I can relax. 

Ok, I have to go to bed & try to relax. 

18 month stats!

So the twins hit 18 months on 8/5/11 & went to doctor for their well check up on 8/11/11.  Everything looks great & they are both developmently doing good.  No shots this check up b/c they were a week early for the shots (yeah for mommy).  But here are their stats:

Joey - 33.75"
           28lbs

Addisyn - 31.25"
                 23lbs


As for the pregnancy it's still going strong.  I've gained 18lbs since my last appointment at 30 weeks.  I'm now going every 2 weeks to my doctor & I have an growth ultrasound next Tuesday 8/23 & I cannot wait to see him.  So I believe we've FINALLY agreed on a name Jake Christopher.  As of this weekend I've been having lots of pressure down below & I think what they call Braxton Hicks contraction (never had them w/ the twins so I don't know).  Baby Jake has been moving almost non-stop for two days.  I go to the doctor tomorrow so we'll see how things are.  I've been just feeling alittle "strange". I'm so ready to not be pregnant anymore & finally meet baby Jake.  Maybe enjoy alittle bit of the rest of summer.  I'm so down w/ being pregnant.  I had a very, very uncomfortable night last night. 

Well I'll try to keep you posted on my upcoming appointments & the arrival of baby Jake.  I just cannot wait for the twins to meet him & see how they react.

Exhausted

I just want to say I'm to the point of pure exhaustion... I'm so damn tired.  I again didn't  sleep well last night this makes 3 days in a row of having a hard time falling asleep & then staying asleep once I do.  UGH, I just want to SLEEP again.  If this is how it's going to go the rest of the pregnancy then I know I'm in for it b/c then it'll be a few months w/ the baby before I'm sleeping thru the night (STTN). 

On a brighter note: we've made it a week w/ the twins in their big boy/girl beds.  Whoo Hoo.  They have done excellent so far & I'm so proud of them.  I kinda really hate saying anything about it b/c I'm affraid of jinxing myself.

RLS Sucks

OMG, I swear my legs want to run off somewhere w/o me.  I'm sitting here on the recliner & my legs are just feel so restless.  I cannot get them to just relax & feel comfortable.  I had this same thing w/ the twins & I remember it's on thing I hated.  I don't understand why it doesn't bother me at work though when I'm just sitting at my desk.  Oh well nothing I can do.

http://www.ehow.com/how_4580385_restless-leg-syndrome-during-pregnancy.html

Well tomorrow I'll be 28 weeks.  Whoo Hoo the end is near, thankfully but i'm not sure if I'm really for the baby to show up & all that hard work all over again.  OMG, I'm so nervous to be a new mom all over again & this time around to have two one year old toddlers running around so it's not like when they were newborn I could sleep when they slept during the day.  Nope b/c when this baby sleeps I'll be playing w/ the twins & I highly doubt that when the twins nap he's going to nap too b/c that'll be to goo to be true.  Well see how it works, I'm sure it'll be fine & everything will work out as it should just like w/ the twins.  I was so nervous bringing them home.  Not only was I never a mom before but I had to be a mom to two new babies & not just one. 

27w6d

Well went to the doctor last Tuesday 7/5/11 & thankfully I passed the glucose test, Whoo Hoo.. Thank you.  I'm really surprised b/c of how overweight I am to begin w/.  I've gained almost 20lbs in 5 weeks, so I've gained a total of 10lbs this pregnancy.  I personally think that's alot of weight in just alittle over a month, but the doc wasn't concerned.  So other then that I'm doing ok still w/ the pregnancy.  The weather has been really hot & humid out which I LOVE, but it hit me really hard yesterday, I felt so completely exhausted & weak.  So this weather for the first time in my life is starting to bother me.  Alot of things are starting to get harder on me. 

Ok as for the twins we officially converted their cribs into toddler day beds on Sunday night so tonight marks the 4th night & so far all is good (fingers crossed I don't want to jinx myself tonight) even the naps have been good.

Addi's bed

Joey's bed

So since they have been doing so good I don't understand why I feel like such a horrible mom for changing thier cribs already.  Why do I constantly feel like crying (maybe the hormones, who knows).  So the next move will be in early September to move Addi's bed into Joey's room so when the baby comes he will be in his own room until he is sleeping thru the night & then Addi will go back into her room & Joey & the baby will share a room.  I am seperating them for now b/c I don't want the baby waking up Joey in the middle of the night.  Then our next adventure will be to start trying to potty train towards the end of this year.  We're going to "try" & if it doesn't work we just stop & try again later.  i'm not going to force them into it if they are not ready but it'd be awesome to have them out of daipers by the time they are two & I know it'll be a miracle too.  LOL.

Ok as for me I'm really, really highly upset w/ my weight & that I ever let myself get to this point after all that hard work I went thru years ago to lose 65-70lbs.  What really hurt me was last night I was walking accross the street b/c my hubby & kids were in the neighbors pool & a car driving by on the other street yelled out "Shamu" & that really, really hurt me really bad.  I couldn't help but cry last night & everytime I think about it b/c Im so fricken fat & there is noone to blame but myself.  I know I gained alot of weight w/ the twins but I had a year before I got pregnant again & I could have al least lost 50lbs w/i that time.  I had no excuse.  Why wait till January to start Weight Watchers again & doing great only to get pregnant that same month.  I told myself this time around I'm going to join WW right away & start a diet as soon as the baby is born.  I'm going to start running agian as soon as I get the A-OK from my OB.  I am not going to wait a year to start getting in shape.  I'm probably 130 lbs over weight right now & that is totally embarrassing to think that.  I am feeling that my hubby doesn't even love me or even find me attractive at all b/c he never tells me I look nice in years or slap my ass in a playful way or say anything to make me think he's still attractive to me like he use to always do it before I got FAT as Shamu.....  I'm disgusted, embarrassed, sick.....  I look at myself & I totally don't blame hubby for not being attracted to me I'm very disgusting looking w/ all my fat rolls everywhere.  I don't even like going anywhere b/c I'm so nasty looking.  I really want to feel the way I did years ago.  I was in shape & happy & healthy.  If I don't changed something soon my health is going to get really bad.  I need to change things NOW w/ my eating & then later (after baby) w/ my workouts & diet. 

Well gotta go I had to tell how I was feeling after that Shamu comment b/c It's really, really bothering me & I cannot get it off my mind.