So it's Thursday & DH is suppose to go put the boat in the water tomorrow & then stay at the camper till Sunday. I'm just not ready for all the stress of being at home alone taking care of two dogs & twins by myself. I really don't need this w/ being pregnant, but I don't think DH gets that I'm pregnant & need help w/ things right now. Anyways he calls me today & wants to go down there tonight. WTH?!?!!?!? To me it feels that he doesn't wanna be w/ or around the twins & I or something. Whatever. I know I have gained lots & lots of weight & I'm very, very, very unattractive right now. After this pregnancy I am going to TRY really hard after this pregnancy to loose at least 75lbs by next summer 2012 to start w/. I just need support. Yes, I'm very uncomfortable w/ myself right now & that's the reason why I didn't want to go anywhere since the twins were born b/c I'm uncomfortable w/ myself & being in public.
Anyways, I'm trying really hard not to stress over this & to just make do w/ the twins this weekend & have fun w/ them. I just hate it so much, but then when he's home it is not any different b/c he's either going out w/ friend & then to hung over the next day or sleep all day. We don't do much fun & my house is the nastiest mess I've seen it in a long time. I need help cleaning but he wont help. I do so much by myself.
Ok, i'm feeling bad for going on & on but I had to get that off of my chest. Since I'm too embarrassed to say anything to anyone else.
Anywho, I'm going to take my dad & the twins to dinner tomorrow night so I'm excited. Then I just have to figure out what to do Saturday & Sunday so we don't have to sit around the house all day.
Dec 2011 - Addisyn, Jake & Joseph
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Trip to the Zoo
Here is a new picture of the twins... I absolutely love this picture it's my favorite. On Sunday DH & I took them to the Zoo for the first time & it totally exhausted them out. They fell asleep & look at how I found them holding hands.
14 1/2 weeks
So sorry I haven't updated in a while, but life is a bit kaotic right now. The twins are walking so I'm staying very busy & especially w/ nice weather coming up.
Anyways, I'm 14.5 weeks now & I got to see the little peanut a few weeks ago & it was of course amazing. I went in for the integrated screening (http://www.questdiagnostics.com/hcp/intguide/jsp/showintguidepage.jsp?fn=Genetics/Prenatal/TS_Integrated_Screen.htm) and everything so far came back normal. I go again for the anatomy scan (2nd part of test) on May 12th at 9am, so we'll offically find out what we are having then unless I get an ultrasound thru my OB before then. I'm so excited. I have a feeling it's a boy & I keep refering to the peanut as a boy. Anyway so far everything looks good, I got to hear the HB last week & It was music to my ears. I go for my next appt May 5th. So far this pregnancy I've lost 1 lb. I'm not trying to loose weight (even though I can afford it) but I don't need to gain to much since I'm already a lard butt.
It still doesn't feel like I'm pregnant for real yet, but I am getting scared on how hard it's going to be with 3 under 2. I do look at it as a complete & total blessing & a reason behind it after all the fertility struggles that DH & I went thru to get to the position we're at today it just amazing. I feel truly blessed for this little surprise.
The twins are doing amazing & are truly amazing me every day. With their walking, trying to talk & just it's something new every day & that's the best. I am so totally in love w/ them.
Well that's it for now. I hope I can remember to update this more especially since I want to keep a blog of this pregnancy since I missed the twins pregnancy.
Anyways, I'm 14.5 weeks now & I got to see the little peanut a few weeks ago & it was of course amazing. I went in for the integrated screening (http://www.questdiagnostics.com/hcp/intguide/jsp/showintguidepage.jsp?fn=Genetics/Prenatal/TS_Integrated_Screen.htm) and everything so far came back normal. I go again for the anatomy scan (2nd part of test) on May 12th at 9am, so we'll offically find out what we are having then unless I get an ultrasound thru my OB before then. I'm so excited. I have a feeling it's a boy & I keep refering to the peanut as a boy. Anyway so far everything looks good, I got to hear the HB last week & It was music to my ears. I go for my next appt May 5th. So far this pregnancy I've lost 1 lb. I'm not trying to loose weight (even though I can afford it) but I don't need to gain to much since I'm already a lard butt.
It still doesn't feel like I'm pregnant for real yet, but I am getting scared on how hard it's going to be with 3 under 2. I do look at it as a complete & total blessing & a reason behind it after all the fertility struggles that DH & I went thru to get to the position we're at today it just amazing. I feel truly blessed for this little surprise.
The twins are doing amazing & are truly amazing me every day. With their walking, trying to talk & just it's something new every day & that's the best. I am so totally in love w/ them.
Well that's it for now. I hope I can remember to update this more especially since I want to keep a blog of this pregnancy since I missed the twins pregnancy.
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